My poor cat. It seems like she hasn't eaten for days. She'll beg and cry for food, but even the smallest morsels stay in her for just a few minutes. My living room rug sure has taken a beating this past week, so if anybody has suggestions on how to remove pet stains/odors I would greatly appreciate it! Tonight she goes in for her enema - even after giving her a stool softener three times a day, nothing has come out. I feel so bad for her - I had my fingers crossed all weekend to find poop in her litter box, but it's just as clean as it was on Friday :(
Saturday I went to the barn, like I always do. The horses feet are really tender right now because they don't have shoes on yet. Big Buddy was definitely the worst, even though Little Bud did get ouchie towards the end of our ride. I think Aunt Weezie was going to call the farrier this week and try to get him to the barn sooner - we can't be laming up our horses before summer starts!
Saturday afternoon I got another airbrush tan, then worked at the grocery store. One shift leader commented that I looked like I just got back from Tahiti! I took that as a compliment :)
After work I did some laundry, cleaned my room and went to bed early. Sunday I went to mom's for breakfast, church and lunch with Aunt Weezie then grocery shopping with mom. I rented the movie Happy Feet, but was less than impressed with it. I also met my noisy neighbors last night, and much to my surprise I went to school with one of them. It actually kind of made me feel better - maybe now that we know each other they'll be a little more quiet when they see that I'm home!!!
Brother got out of jail Saturday at some point and went out to lunch with Pastor D. I guess he also went to the jail to see Brother, too. I made a point to thank thank him at church on Sunday and asked that he continue to pray for him.
Hopefully this week will be better than last week. Tonight I'm going to get me a new fish since I don't have to work at the store tonight. I only work Wednesday and Saturday over there this week - fine with me!
Monday, April 30, 2007
Friday, April 27, 2007
Madison's Mommy
If I was still in college last night would've been called a 'pukin rally'. It was an event named by the Kappa brothers, referring to when somebody ends up puking their guts out (usually because they had too much to drink). Nobody in my household had anything to drink last night, but Madison sure did find a way to let me know she wasn't feeling well. When she started vomiting up bile, I called the ER Vet clinic and they suggested I set up an appointment for this morning. Considering I was just there yesterday (and waited over an hour to be seen) I was less than thrilled with this bit of information.
I went to work early to make up some hours, and took kitty in for a 10:30 appointment. At this point she couldn't even keep water down and I'm a basket case wondering if I have fed my princess some tainted wet food.
When it was our turn to go in the vet tech said they had to take her out back and return momentarily. Almost immediately I heard my baby howling and meowing as loud as she could - they were drawing blood. My nose started to burn and I fought back tears. After taking an x-ray they brought her back in and she curled up in the back of the kennel. Everything came out fine except for the fact that she was constipated and a little dehydrated. They decided to give her a quick IV and asked me to hold her. As they stuck the needle in I started to feel a little warm. By the end of the procedure I had broken out in a cold sweat and had to sit down with my eyes closed - I nearly passed out! I may not have any children, but that cat is as close to my child as any animal could possibly be.
So here I sit at the office, making up more hours. Between the dentist and vet appointments I've missed about 6 hours of work this week. With two fun trips coming up I really need to bank my vacation time!
I also would like to throw in a prayer request. My little brother is in jail right now, paying the consequences for his OUI last month. He really is a good kid, just a little lost right now. I can't imagine what he's going through right now. He's the only member of my family that has been to jail - can you imagine being the person that starts such a trend? Not I! Anyways, please keep him in your thoughts -I know he screwed up and probably deserves to be where he is, but he's still my brother and I still love him ~
I went to work early to make up some hours, and took kitty in for a 10:30 appointment. At this point she couldn't even keep water down and I'm a basket case wondering if I have fed my princess some tainted wet food.
When it was our turn to go in the vet tech said they had to take her out back and return momentarily. Almost immediately I heard my baby howling and meowing as loud as she could - they were drawing blood. My nose started to burn and I fought back tears. After taking an x-ray they brought her back in and she curled up in the back of the kennel. Everything came out fine except for the fact that she was constipated and a little dehydrated. They decided to give her a quick IV and asked me to hold her. As they stuck the needle in I started to feel a little warm. By the end of the procedure I had broken out in a cold sweat and had to sit down with my eyes closed - I nearly passed out! I may not have any children, but that cat is as close to my child as any animal could possibly be.
So here I sit at the office, making up more hours. Between the dentist and vet appointments I've missed about 6 hours of work this week. With two fun trips coming up I really need to bank my vacation time!
I also would like to throw in a prayer request. My little brother is in jail right now, paying the consequences for his OUI last month. He really is a good kid, just a little lost right now. I can't imagine what he's going through right now. He's the only member of my family that has been to jail - can you imagine being the person that starts such a trend? Not I! Anyways, please keep him in your thoughts -I know he screwed up and probably deserves to be where he is, but he's still my brother and I still love him ~
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Had a Bad Day
I normally am thankful for every day that I have on this planet, but every once in a while an occasion or two comes along when going to bed and making it all go away is my top priority.
Yesterday was one of those days.
I started off with a boring meeting at the hospital. I'm sure this guy had some very useful information to offer, but after an hour of dry rambling, one can only take in so much. I was putting so much effort into staying conscious that I missed the last hour of his presentation - who needs to know about Medicare anyways, right?
Back at the office I discover we are short-handed, which means I didn't have a lot of time to get the stuff that I need to work on done. My co-workers sometimes done understand how time-sensitive my work is, and I'm the one that's in the spotlight when it doesn't get done. I could feel the frustrations start to rise.
To add insult to injury I am suffering from PMS this week AND I was wearing sandals that were anything but comfortable. My co-workers snickered as I hobbled around the office and I just grumbled under my breath.
Around 2:00 one of the nurses offered to let me wear her Nurse Mates, which are white clog-type shoes. I was happy and relieved to take off those cute but dreadful sandals as I slid on these clogs that were about 1/2 size too small. As I was walking out front one of the secretaries laughed and said "man, those look STUpid!" I shot her a warning glance as another secretary said "wow, you just flipped out without saying a word!" At this point I said I needed to be left alone or else mean things will start to come out of my mouth.
The work day finally ended and I sped out of the parking lot. I had to pee, my feet hurt and I was hungry. As I got off at my exit I sighed as traffic sped up and down Hammond St. It's always so hard to get out of that intersection - it seriously needs a light there. Boiling with aggrivation I sped out in front of a car and nearly ran over a man on a motorcycle. I was so close to him he tried to kick my car! I was absolutely mortified at this point. As a fellow biker I feel extra responsible to be courteous to people on motorcycles, and now I've almost killed one. I start crying and was hysterical by the time I got to my house.
After coming very close to calling in, I put on my apron and head to Hannaford - that work environment usually cheers me up, so I figured I'd choose my attitude and put a smile on my face. Of course, everyone was asking what was wrong with me because my face was red and my eyes were red and watery - it was hard to keep my horrible day off my mind while people kept asking what was up.
Finally I broke down and went into the shift leader office. I needed to blow my nose, and there's a mirror on the back of the door so I could check for "hangers" (I'd be so embarrassed to have a booger hanging out of my nose for the rest of the night!). As I leaned into the mirror I heard one of the shift leaders burst in and the door slammed directly into my head. Down I went. Discombobulated and confused, the shift leader apologizes and helped me up. The water works came again and I excused myself to the bathroom. At this point I have hit an ultimate low and just wanted to go home.
I came back to my senses and headed back out front. One of the other shift leaders said if I started to experience any symptoms to let her know, and she'd send me home. At that point I was fine, but as the evening progressed I because increasingly dizzy and nauseated - along with a pounding headache. By 8:30 I was so dizzy I could hardly function and I called Matty to see if he'd come pick me up. He made arrangements, picked me up and had somebody else drive his van back to my house. He helped me upstairs, got my pjs out, then went back downstairs until I changed. As he stumbled back upstairs (I wouldn't let him turn any lights on) he rubbed my belly until I drifted off to sleep. He crashed on the couch that night and checked on me periodically to make sure I wasn't showing any signs of a concussion. I woke up this morning with a headache, but was able to drive myself to work.
The day is going well so far, besides the headache of course. I'd rather have head pain than more of that dizziness though - I was miserable last night.
Tonight Matty is treating to chinese food - maybe I should have him pick up a helmet to protect me from myself!
Yesterday was one of those days.
I started off with a boring meeting at the hospital. I'm sure this guy had some very useful information to offer, but after an hour of dry rambling, one can only take in so much. I was putting so much effort into staying conscious that I missed the last hour of his presentation - who needs to know about Medicare anyways, right?
Back at the office I discover we are short-handed, which means I didn't have a lot of time to get the stuff that I need to work on done. My co-workers sometimes done understand how time-sensitive my work is, and I'm the one that's in the spotlight when it doesn't get done. I could feel the frustrations start to rise.
To add insult to injury I am suffering from PMS this week AND I was wearing sandals that were anything but comfortable. My co-workers snickered as I hobbled around the office and I just grumbled under my breath.
Around 2:00 one of the nurses offered to let me wear her Nurse Mates, which are white clog-type shoes. I was happy and relieved to take off those cute but dreadful sandals as I slid on these clogs that were about 1/2 size too small. As I was walking out front one of the secretaries laughed and said "man, those look STUpid!" I shot her a warning glance as another secretary said "wow, you just flipped out without saying a word!" At this point I said I needed to be left alone or else mean things will start to come out of my mouth.
The work day finally ended and I sped out of the parking lot. I had to pee, my feet hurt and I was hungry. As I got off at my exit I sighed as traffic sped up and down Hammond St. It's always so hard to get out of that intersection - it seriously needs a light there. Boiling with aggrivation I sped out in front of a car and nearly ran over a man on a motorcycle. I was so close to him he tried to kick my car! I was absolutely mortified at this point. As a fellow biker I feel extra responsible to be courteous to people on motorcycles, and now I've almost killed one. I start crying and was hysterical by the time I got to my house.
After coming very close to calling in, I put on my apron and head to Hannaford - that work environment usually cheers me up, so I figured I'd choose my attitude and put a smile on my face. Of course, everyone was asking what was wrong with me because my face was red and my eyes were red and watery - it was hard to keep my horrible day off my mind while people kept asking what was up.
Finally I broke down and went into the shift leader office. I needed to blow my nose, and there's a mirror on the back of the door so I could check for "hangers" (I'd be so embarrassed to have a booger hanging out of my nose for the rest of the night!). As I leaned into the mirror I heard one of the shift leaders burst in and the door slammed directly into my head. Down I went. Discombobulated and confused, the shift leader apologizes and helped me up. The water works came again and I excused myself to the bathroom. At this point I have hit an ultimate low and just wanted to go home.
I came back to my senses and headed back out front. One of the other shift leaders said if I started to experience any symptoms to let her know, and she'd send me home. At that point I was fine, but as the evening progressed I because increasingly dizzy and nauseated - along with a pounding headache. By 8:30 I was so dizzy I could hardly function and I called Matty to see if he'd come pick me up. He made arrangements, picked me up and had somebody else drive his van back to my house. He helped me upstairs, got my pjs out, then went back downstairs until I changed. As he stumbled back upstairs (I wouldn't let him turn any lights on) he rubbed my belly until I drifted off to sleep. He crashed on the couch that night and checked on me periodically to make sure I wasn't showing any signs of a concussion. I woke up this morning with a headache, but was able to drive myself to work.
The day is going well so far, besides the headache of course. I'd rather have head pain than more of that dizziness though - I was miserable last night.
Tonight Matty is treating to chinese food - maybe I should have him pick up a helmet to protect me from myself!
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Movie Monday
Work went by really fast yesterday - we have a secretary that has been helping over at the Brewer office because they're short, which leaves her work load for the rest of us to take care of. I prefer busy days as it definitely makes the hours pass much quicker.
After work Step-dad changed my snow tires over, so my car feels 100lbs lighter now. It's kind of nice having a connection in the auto department - he does all of the work my car needs, and gives me a nice family discount :)
Once my car was all set I ran to Hannaford and rented Night at the Museum, and picked up an actual loofah. I talked to the Moon Tans lady who informed me that I had been using a "nylon ball" as opposed to her recommended loofah. Honestly, I didn't even know there was a difference! When I got up to the register I confirmed with the cashier that I was indeed buying the correct item this time. I was reassurred when she pointed to the word 'loofah' on the package. We'll see how my tan comes out this Saturday.
Matty came by for supper and I made chicken cordon bleu (not the frozen stuff either!), green beans and biscuits. For dessert I had made a really nice fruit salad with cantaloupe, honeydew, strawberries, watermelon, pineapple and red grapes. When it came time for dessert though, my sweet tooth kicked in and I offered Caramel Caribou ice cream instead. I had some fruit salad for breakfast this morning instead!
Night at the Museum was a very fun movie, and I highly recommend it for anybody that is interested in watching it! There was a great cast including Owen Wilson, Ben Stiller, Robin Williams, Dick Van Dyke and Mickey Rooney, and it's fun for all ages! Geez, I sound like a commercial! lol
After work Step-dad changed my snow tires over, so my car feels 100lbs lighter now. It's kind of nice having a connection in the auto department - he does all of the work my car needs, and gives me a nice family discount :)
Once my car was all set I ran to Hannaford and rented Night at the Museum, and picked up an actual loofah. I talked to the Moon Tans lady who informed me that I had been using a "nylon ball" as opposed to her recommended loofah. Honestly, I didn't even know there was a difference! When I got up to the register I confirmed with the cashier that I was indeed buying the correct item this time. I was reassurred when she pointed to the word 'loofah' on the package. We'll see how my tan comes out this Saturday.
Matty came by for supper and I made chicken cordon bleu (not the frozen stuff either!), green beans and biscuits. For dessert I had made a really nice fruit salad with cantaloupe, honeydew, strawberries, watermelon, pineapple and red grapes. When it came time for dessert though, my sweet tooth kicked in and I offered Caramel Caribou ice cream instead. I had some fruit salad for breakfast this morning instead!
Night at the Museum was a very fun movie, and I highly recommend it for anybody that is interested in watching it! There was a great cast including Owen Wilson, Ben Stiller, Robin Williams, Dick Van Dyke and Mickey Rooney, and it's fun for all ages! Geez, I sound like a commercial! lol
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Bad Bad Blogger
So it's been well over a week since my last post...sorry. I'll spare you from the excuses - not that I really have any. I'll give you a quick update though.
My week of fun was pretty exciting - I can see why the doctor ordered it! Between visiting family, treating myself to expensive cereal and tasty leftovers I truely enjoyed myself. I also experienced my first Moon Tan last week! I used to be a chronic tanner until last summer when I had a cancer scare. Luckily it ended up being nothing, but I vowed to protect my skin from then on.
Moon Tans is the only organic tan available in the area. It's made of Aloe, moisturizer and DHT - it won't turn you orange because it's not full of chemicals like your typical spray tan. This is actually an airbrush tan - it gets sprayed on you from head to toe by the owner, Kim. When I got to work the next day everybody was asking if I had gone on a trip somewhere because I was so tan - my face looks so good!
Thursday I had to take Madison to the vet. $116 later she was diagnosed with a UTI and was on an antibiotic AND pain meds. It's been quite a battle getting those meds into her - my floor is covered with medicine and my hands are all scratched up. I've been a little paranoid with this whole tained pet food epidemic as well. I feed her Friskies which has not been on the list of recalled foods, but I still watch to make sure she isn't having any symptoms. She didn't finish her supper last night, barely touched breakfast this morning, then vomited before I went to work. If she hasn't eaten by the time I get home today I'll have to call again. I'd be devastated if anything ever happened to my precious kitty :(
This weekend I got my hair colored, worked a little at Hannaford, then went to a surprise baby shower on Sunday. Two of my sorority sisters are pregnant, one just had a baby, and one is trying to have a baby. My friend Garret just found out his girlfriend is having a baby, and my friend Clayton just found out HIS girlfriend is having a baby. Doesn't anybody get married before having kids any more?? I kind of feel bad for Jaime, my sister that we had the party for - her boyfriend dumped her after she told him she wouldn't be having an abortion. Some guy, huh?
Tonight I am having my ex-boyfriend Matty over for dinner. Very recently we have begun talking again and we both are having a hard time ignoring the sparks that are still there. We both have been through a lot, and he certainly has put me through a lot emotionally. I can't help but notice how much he's grown up though - having a kid must do that to a person. A lot of my friends and co-workers can't believe I'm even talking to him right now. I ponder that sometimes myself, but then I referred to the Bible. Col. 3:13 says "Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any, forgive as the Lord forgave you." Also, Rom. 12:2 says "and be not conformed to this world, but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God."
To err is human and to forgive is divine ~
My week of fun was pretty exciting - I can see why the doctor ordered it! Between visiting family, treating myself to expensive cereal and tasty leftovers I truely enjoyed myself. I also experienced my first Moon Tan last week! I used to be a chronic tanner until last summer when I had a cancer scare. Luckily it ended up being nothing, but I vowed to protect my skin from then on.
Moon Tans is the only organic tan available in the area. It's made of Aloe, moisturizer and DHT - it won't turn you orange because it's not full of chemicals like your typical spray tan. This is actually an airbrush tan - it gets sprayed on you from head to toe by the owner, Kim. When I got to work the next day everybody was asking if I had gone on a trip somewhere because I was so tan - my face looks so good!
Thursday I had to take Madison to the vet. $116 later she was diagnosed with a UTI and was on an antibiotic AND pain meds. It's been quite a battle getting those meds into her - my floor is covered with medicine and my hands are all scratched up. I've been a little paranoid with this whole tained pet food epidemic as well. I feed her Friskies which has not been on the list of recalled foods, but I still watch to make sure she isn't having any symptoms. She didn't finish her supper last night, barely touched breakfast this morning, then vomited before I went to work. If she hasn't eaten by the time I get home today I'll have to call again. I'd be devastated if anything ever happened to my precious kitty :(
This weekend I got my hair colored, worked a little at Hannaford, then went to a surprise baby shower on Sunday. Two of my sorority sisters are pregnant, one just had a baby, and one is trying to have a baby. My friend Garret just found out his girlfriend is having a baby, and my friend Clayton just found out HIS girlfriend is having a baby. Doesn't anybody get married before having kids any more?? I kind of feel bad for Jaime, my sister that we had the party for - her boyfriend dumped her after she told him she wouldn't be having an abortion. Some guy, huh?
Tonight I am having my ex-boyfriend Matty over for dinner. Very recently we have begun talking again and we both are having a hard time ignoring the sparks that are still there. We both have been through a lot, and he certainly has put me through a lot emotionally. I can't help but notice how much he's grown up though - having a kid must do that to a person. A lot of my friends and co-workers can't believe I'm even talking to him right now. I ponder that sometimes myself, but then I referred to the Bible. Col. 3:13 says "Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any, forgive as the Lord forgave you." Also, Rom. 12:2 says "and be not conformed to this world, but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God."
To err is human and to forgive is divine ~
Thursday, April 12, 2007
I Need To Lighten Up!
The day went by pretty fast yesterday at the office. We're down two doctors this week so I've had to find other things to do. It's nice to get away from my desk and change the scenery once in a while.
After work I went to see Counselor again. I asked her about co-dependency, because my doctor had told me I need to work on that. It's hard to explain, so I Googled the definition:
"As adults, codependent people have a greater tendency to get involved in relationships with people who are perhaps unreliable, emotionally unavailable, or needy. And the codependent person tries to provide and control everything within the relationship without addressing their own needs or desires; setting themselves up for continued unfulfillment. It also is a psychological state where a person acts against their own will or conscious desires in which to behave." Symptoms of co-dependency include controlling behavior, distrust, perfectionism, avoidance of feelings, intimacy problems, caretaking behavior, hypervigilance (a heightened awareness for potential threat/danger) and physical illness related to stress.
That is me in a way, but kind of not. I know when Brother was having his drug/alcohol problem I tried to do everything in my power to stop it, and to make him realize that the girl in his life was a negative influence and was no good for him. My mom kept telling me he'd have to learn this on his own, and I couldn't understand why she wasn't doing anything about it.
The other situation that defines me is where 'a person acts against their own will or conscious desires in which to behave'. I am a person that aims to please, and wants everyone to think highly of me. My family is my first priority - I want them to see that I am a good girl, not a bad girl. This has affected my love life in a way, because when I meet someone the first thing I think of is "what would my relatives think" and usually look the other way. There is one person that I fell deeply in love with several years ago and we have been talking again recently. I have been tempted to spend time with him to see if he has grown up at all, but I am afraid of what my family will think. Counselor says I should do what makes me happy and that my family will accept me no matter what, but I can't help but wonder what will be said about the situation when I'm not around.
So my assignment this week is to do something fun every day until I see her again next Thursday. It seems I can't get out of 'work mode' and am not having enough fun. When I do have fun, I feel like I should be doing something productive such as cleaning my room, dusting, etc. Last night I went to Target with Joy and got a new bathing suit (which I guess isn't always that fun) and tonight I have a date. I'm open to suggestions for the rest of the week!
After work I went to see Counselor again. I asked her about co-dependency, because my doctor had told me I need to work on that. It's hard to explain, so I Googled the definition:
"As adults, codependent people have a greater tendency to get involved in relationships with people who are perhaps unreliable, emotionally unavailable, or needy. And the codependent person tries to provide and control everything within the relationship without addressing their own needs or desires; setting themselves up for continued unfulfillment. It also is a psychological state where a person acts against their own will or conscious desires in which to behave." Symptoms of co-dependency include controlling behavior, distrust, perfectionism, avoidance of feelings, intimacy problems, caretaking behavior, hypervigilance (a heightened awareness for potential threat/danger) and physical illness related to stress.
That is me in a way, but kind of not. I know when Brother was having his drug/alcohol problem I tried to do everything in my power to stop it, and to make him realize that the girl in his life was a negative influence and was no good for him. My mom kept telling me he'd have to learn this on his own, and I couldn't understand why she wasn't doing anything about it.
The other situation that defines me is where 'a person acts against their own will or conscious desires in which to behave'. I am a person that aims to please, and wants everyone to think highly of me. My family is my first priority - I want them to see that I am a good girl, not a bad girl. This has affected my love life in a way, because when I meet someone the first thing I think of is "what would my relatives think" and usually look the other way. There is one person that I fell deeply in love with several years ago and we have been talking again recently. I have been tempted to spend time with him to see if he has grown up at all, but I am afraid of what my family will think. Counselor says I should do what makes me happy and that my family will accept me no matter what, but I can't help but wonder what will be said about the situation when I'm not around.
So my assignment this week is to do something fun every day until I see her again next Thursday. It seems I can't get out of 'work mode' and am not having enough fun. When I do have fun, I feel like I should be doing something productive such as cleaning my room, dusting, etc. Last night I went to Target with Joy and got a new bathing suit (which I guess isn't always that fun) and tonight I have a date. I'm open to suggestions for the rest of the week!
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
The Snowbirds Have Landed...
...and I bet they're ready to get back on that plane and head to Florida! I visited with them for a bit last night and they sure were exhausted - and without luggage!
I worked until 4 last night, went home to feed Madison, then went to Aunt Weezie's for some visiting and chop suey! We prepared a plate for Grammy and Grampy and delivered them next door - it was yummy! Grammy even noticed that I had lost weight! That's pretty impressive considering she's legally blind.
After supper I visited with the grandparents for a bit, then went back over to Aunt Weezie's. We helped set my other grandmother up with her blog, then watched American Idol. I haven't seen any of it yet, so I was anxious to hear this Sanjayah character, who I've heard so much about. He actually did a pretty good job last night, so I guess I picked a bad night to tune in. Aunt Weezie will have to let me know who ends up going home tonight.
I got home around 9:15ish, played around with My Space for a bit, and was in bed by 10. Around 10:15 I got a text message saying 'goodnight my beautiful brown-eyed girl'. It was from my ex-boyfriend, Matt. We had just talked on the phone Sunday night, but really haven't talked much since he moved home from Pennsylvania. I'm glad we're on good terms and stuff, but I'm really hoping he's not shooting for a reconciliation. Sunday I made it clear that would not happen - he's done enough damage to me. He said he understood and accepted that, but after getting that text I'm not so sure. At least if I'm ever tempted to take him back all I'd have to do is talk to my family or friends - they'll slap some sense into me real fast! I know there's someone out there for me, I just kinda wish he'd come around because it would be really nice to have someone look forward to seeing me every day after work besides my cat.
I worked until 4 last night, went home to feed Madison, then went to Aunt Weezie's for some visiting and chop suey! We prepared a plate for Grammy and Grampy and delivered them next door - it was yummy! Grammy even noticed that I had lost weight! That's pretty impressive considering she's legally blind.
After supper I visited with the grandparents for a bit, then went back over to Aunt Weezie's. We helped set my other grandmother up with her blog, then watched American Idol. I haven't seen any of it yet, so I was anxious to hear this Sanjayah character, who I've heard so much about. He actually did a pretty good job last night, so I guess I picked a bad night to tune in. Aunt Weezie will have to let me know who ends up going home tonight.
I got home around 9:15ish, played around with My Space for a bit, and was in bed by 10. Around 10:15 I got a text message saying 'goodnight my beautiful brown-eyed girl'. It was from my ex-boyfriend, Matt. We had just talked on the phone Sunday night, but really haven't talked much since he moved home from Pennsylvania. I'm glad we're on good terms and stuff, but I'm really hoping he's not shooting for a reconciliation. Sunday I made it clear that would not happen - he's done enough damage to me. He said he understood and accepted that, but after getting that text I'm not so sure. At least if I'm ever tempted to take him back all I'd have to do is talk to my family or friends - they'll slap some sense into me real fast! I know there's someone out there for me, I just kinda wish he'd come around because it would be really nice to have someone look forward to seeing me every day after work besides my cat.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
More on the Weekend
Sunday I was beat - I napped for 3 hours, then stayed in bed the rest of the evening. Thankfully I have a laptop so I was able to get my internet fix for the day as well.
One of the contributing factors to my fatigue was my late evening Saturday. My friend Dizzy D informed me that he would be in town and wanted to hang out. We were good friends in high school and he moved down to Portland several years ago. He always calls me when he comes to town, which is usually just around the holidays. I was planning on going to bed early Saturday night, but I couldn't pass up a chance to see him! I picked him up at the Sea Dog and we went to the Sports Arena and did some bowling. We ran into a lot of people we went to high school with, and everyone kept asking if we were a couple. D and I have never crossed the friends barrier - I have a tendency of developing a crush on him when he has a girlfriend, but I would hate to ruin the friendship we have by adding in all that romantic crap. He makes me laugh more than anybody else I know!
Sunday morning I was up at 4:30 to be at Aunt Weezie's by 5:30. She stayed in bed, so me and the Uncle went to the sunrise service and had some breakfast. That lasted about an hour, then we went back to their house to wait for church again at 10. I was starting to feel a little sleepy during the service and at one point my cousin, J, poked me with a pen to keep me conscious!
After church I went to mom's for lunch - lasagna! It was just me, her, step-dad and Brother. By then I was getting pretty sleepy and headed home to get some sleep!
One of the contributing factors to my fatigue was my late evening Saturday. My friend Dizzy D informed me that he would be in town and wanted to hang out. We were good friends in high school and he moved down to Portland several years ago. He always calls me when he comes to town, which is usually just around the holidays. I was planning on going to bed early Saturday night, but I couldn't pass up a chance to see him! I picked him up at the Sea Dog and we went to the Sports Arena and did some bowling. We ran into a lot of people we went to high school with, and everyone kept asking if we were a couple. D and I have never crossed the friends barrier - I have a tendency of developing a crush on him when he has a girlfriend, but I would hate to ruin the friendship we have by adding in all that romantic crap. He makes me laugh more than anybody else I know!
Sunday morning I was up at 4:30 to be at Aunt Weezie's by 5:30. She stayed in bed, so me and the Uncle went to the sunrise service and had some breakfast. That lasted about an hour, then we went back to their house to wait for church again at 10. I was starting to feel a little sleepy during the service and at one point my cousin, J, poked me with a pen to keep me conscious!
After church I went to mom's for lunch - lasagna! It was just me, her, step-dad and Brother. By then I was getting pretty sleepy and headed home to get some sleep!
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Blogging in Bed
What a busy weekend!
Friday night my date finally showed up - about 10:45PM. At least he had a pizza loaded with cheese with him! We watched the movie Fly Boys, which was actually pretty good, besides the fact that it was 2 hours long. I had a hard time keeping Mr. Date focused though - he had other things on his mind and unfortunately for him I didn't allow it. That'll most likely be our only date - I prefer a gentleman that at least pretends he's not a typical guy.
Saturday I got up and went to the barn with Aunt Weezie. I hopped on Lil Bud bareback and played around inside for a bit. Then we went outside and took some pictures while it was snowing. My horse is such a stud muffin.
Well it's time for me to go to bed, even though I'm already IN bed! I'll update more on the weekend tomorrow.
Friday night my date finally showed up - about 10:45PM. At least he had a pizza loaded with cheese with him! We watched the movie Fly Boys, which was actually pretty good, besides the fact that it was 2 hours long. I had a hard time keeping Mr. Date focused though - he had other things on his mind and unfortunately for him I didn't allow it. That'll most likely be our only date - I prefer a gentleman that at least pretends he's not a typical guy.
Saturday I got up and went to the barn with Aunt Weezie. I hopped on Lil Bud bareback and played around inside for a bit. Then we went outside and took some pictures while it was snowing. My horse is such a stud muffin.
Well it's time for me to go to bed, even though I'm already IN bed! I'll update more on the weekend tomorrow.
Friday, April 6, 2007
(IM)Patiently Waiting
I hate waiting. I get my patience from my father, so for those of you that know him, know exactly what I'm talking about.
I'm supposed to have a date tonight. Well, I think it's a date. I haven't been on one since November, so I've kinda forgotten what a date entails. Now that I think about it, I don't even know many details about this date. We have established that we will be watching a movie and there was a mention of pizza (which I was ready to eat 3 hours ago). I don't know where we will be watching this movie or obviously what time we were going to meet up. I'm starting to realize that not everybody has their pj's on by 8:30 and in bed by 10:30 on a Friday night!
Charlie is still doing ok - he hasn't been moving much, but at least he's not dead.
Tomorrow Aunt Weezie and I are headed to the barn - our Saturday tradition (and the reason I don't stay up late Friday nights). I'm kind of bummed we have so much snow - the outdoor arena was nice and dry last weekend...now we can't even see the ground again. Oh well...that's Maine!
Sunday I have to be up before the sun rises - I'm going to the Sunrise Service followed by a church breakfast. Aunt Weezie doesn't usually go to that so it's just me and the Uncle. After church I head over to mumsie's for lasagna. My uncle and his gf are coming up from Portland, so it'll be nice to see them. Brother and step-brother will be there as well. After lunch, I'm taking a nap!
I'm supposed to have a date tonight. Well, I think it's a date. I haven't been on one since November, so I've kinda forgotten what a date entails. Now that I think about it, I don't even know many details about this date. We have established that we will be watching a movie and there was a mention of pizza (which I was ready to eat 3 hours ago). I don't know where we will be watching this movie or obviously what time we were going to meet up. I'm starting to realize that not everybody has their pj's on by 8:30 and in bed by 10:30 on a Friday night!
Charlie is still doing ok - he hasn't been moving much, but at least he's not dead.
Tomorrow Aunt Weezie and I are headed to the barn - our Saturday tradition (and the reason I don't stay up late Friday nights). I'm kind of bummed we have so much snow - the outdoor arena was nice and dry last weekend...now we can't even see the ground again. Oh well...that's Maine!
Sunday I have to be up before the sun rises - I'm going to the Sunrise Service followed by a church breakfast. Aunt Weezie doesn't usually go to that so it's just me and the Uncle. After church I head over to mumsie's for lasagna. My uncle and his gf are coming up from Portland, so it'll be nice to see them. Brother and step-brother will be there as well. After lunch, I'm taking a nap!
Thursday, April 5, 2007
Dumped!
This morning I woke up and was ready early - I figured I'd have to scrape off my car and drive slowly to work. I had no idea that snow was almost up to my knees when I opened the door to leave my house - I was less than impressed. I got stuck halfway down my driveway and had to shovel my way out. When I got to work I was soaked from head to toe.
The day was pretty unproductive - we lost power around 10am and couldn't do much of anything. By 12:30 I had decided it was time for me to call it a day and headed out. I had plenty of work to do, but I was dying for a nap - seems like forever since I've had time to do that!
Once I got home I checked my MySpace really quick and put my PJs on. 10 minutes later I was reminded why I don't like it here any more. My neighbors make so much noise - between the laughing, running up and down the stairs and hootin and hollering, I didn't sleep a wink. Instead, I just rested my eyes for about 2 hours. How can people be do darn noisy?? What happens if I stay home because I'm sick? Will I not be able to get any rest because these people can't shut up for a single day?!
Anywho, I got up and cleaned my apartment for a bit until it was time to see Heather - my counselor. I meet with her once a week for an hour - she's great. I saw her a couple years ago when me and Matty were having problems and I wish I had never stopped. I always feel so much better after talking to her - thank God for insurance!
Charlie Chaplin seems to be doing better every day - I came home from work and he was actually swimming around! I really hope he pulls through this...listen to me, all concerned about a little fish!
Isn't his little moustache cute! :)
The day was pretty unproductive - we lost power around 10am and couldn't do much of anything. By 12:30 I had decided it was time for me to call it a day and headed out. I had plenty of work to do, but I was dying for a nap - seems like forever since I've had time to do that!
Once I got home I checked my MySpace really quick and put my PJs on. 10 minutes later I was reminded why I don't like it here any more. My neighbors make so much noise - between the laughing, running up and down the stairs and hootin and hollering, I didn't sleep a wink. Instead, I just rested my eyes for about 2 hours. How can people be do darn noisy?? What happens if I stay home because I'm sick? Will I not be able to get any rest because these people can't shut up for a single day?!
Anywho, I got up and cleaned my apartment for a bit until it was time to see Heather - my counselor. I meet with her once a week for an hour - she's great. I saw her a couple years ago when me and Matty were having problems and I wish I had never stopped. I always feel so much better after talking to her - thank God for insurance!
Charlie Chaplin seems to be doing better every day - I came home from work and he was actually swimming around! I really hope he pulls through this...listen to me, all concerned about a little fish!
Isn't his little moustache cute! :)
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
Hump Day
Another day of nothing but work. People think I'm crazy, but I still love it. There were a couple things that made me smile though:
Today at work we were talking about death, and how my co-workers couldn't understand why I'm not scared of it. "Because she has faith" says Tera. It made me feel all warm and fuzzy. Yes, I do have faith - I know that when it's my time to go there is something so much better than the awesome life I already have. I also believe that everything happens for a reason - death is something I certainly can't avoid, so why try to hide from it?
Charlie Chaplin also seems to be doing better today. Yesterday he had these white spots on his head and he wasn't doing anything. Between jobs I did a partial water change and that seemed to have perked him up a bit. Good thing - he was expensive!
Tonight at the store I saw my friend Tony who I haven't spoken to in at least a year. He brought in his 9 week-old Border Collie pup and he was so cute! The puppy was cute to...hehe.
Tomorrow is Maine Black Bears Day at the office and I don't have anything to wear. One of my co-workers happens to be a hockey freak though, and said she has enough tee shirts to go around. We'll see if there's one that isn't so long it looks like a dress on me!
Well Madison says it's time for bed, so I guess that's it. Tomorrow I have an appointment with my counselor to discuss my "co-dependency" issues that my doctor says I have. I guess the first thing we'll have to do is clarify what co-dependency actually is ~
Today at work we were talking about death, and how my co-workers couldn't understand why I'm not scared of it. "Because she has faith" says Tera. It made me feel all warm and fuzzy. Yes, I do have faith - I know that when it's my time to go there is something so much better than the awesome life I already have. I also believe that everything happens for a reason - death is something I certainly can't avoid, so why try to hide from it?
Charlie Chaplin also seems to be doing better today. Yesterday he had these white spots on his head and he wasn't doing anything. Between jobs I did a partial water change and that seemed to have perked him up a bit. Good thing - he was expensive!
Tonight at the store I saw my friend Tony who I haven't spoken to in at least a year. He brought in his 9 week-old Border Collie pup and he was so cute! The puppy was cute to...hehe.
Tomorrow is Maine Black Bears Day at the office and I don't have anything to wear. One of my co-workers happens to be a hockey freak though, and said she has enough tee shirts to go around. We'll see if there's one that isn't so long it looks like a dress on me!
Well Madison says it's time for bed, so I guess that's it. Tomorrow I have an appointment with my counselor to discuss my "co-dependency" issues that my doctor says I have. I guess the first thing we'll have to do is clarify what co-dependency actually is ~
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
Takeout Tuesday
Tuesdays is one of my favorite days of the week. It's really quiet at the office and we always order takeout - usually whatever Stacey decides she wants. Today we ordered from Chili's and I got a kids meal - ribs, cinnamon apples and a soda for just $5.99. It was the perfect size and the apples were to die for!
After work Joy and I went for a walk - it was cold. We didn't take our usual route because our toes were going numb. After getting back to the house, she had to use my computer for a school project and I made chicken stir fry for supper.
The highlight of my day was about an hour ago - my brother sent me a text message that said 'I just wanted to see how you are doin and to say hey'. If my apartment was a little bigger I probably would've done back flips right there in my bedroom. Our relationship has suffered since he got in with his "crowd" of friends. We used to be best friends - we even had an apartment together. I sure have missed him. I'm glad he's finally coming around, and I'm thankful he has survived the dangerous lifestyle that he was enduring. I'll take this text message as a sign that he is ready to be friends again. Hopefully he is starting to realize that family is so much more than people you borrow money from.
Please pray for my little bro - I'd love to see him on the right track. That, and I'd love to have my best friend back.
After work Joy and I went for a walk - it was cold. We didn't take our usual route because our toes were going numb. After getting back to the house, she had to use my computer for a school project and I made chicken stir fry for supper.
The highlight of my day was about an hour ago - my brother sent me a text message that said 'I just wanted to see how you are doin and to say hey'. If my apartment was a little bigger I probably would've done back flips right there in my bedroom. Our relationship has suffered since he got in with his "crowd" of friends. We used to be best friends - we even had an apartment together. I sure have missed him. I'm glad he's finally coming around, and I'm thankful he has survived the dangerous lifestyle that he was enduring. I'll take this text message as a sign that he is ready to be friends again. Hopefully he is starting to realize that family is so much more than people you borrow money from.
Please pray for my little bro - I'd love to see him on the right track. That, and I'd love to have my best friend back.
Monday, April 2, 2007
I've Been Tagged!
Answer each question with 3 words - no more, no less.
Where is you cell phone? downstairs I think
Boyfriend? 3 years ago
Hair? growing out slowly
Your mother? an amazing woman
Your Father? works a lot
Your favorite items? my dell laptop
Your dream last night? Didn't have one
Your favorite drink? canned Dr. Pepper
Your dream guy? built handsome gentleman
The room you are in? my messy room
Your fear? Losing loved ones
What do you want to be in ten years? healthy, in love
Who did you hang out with last night? joy and madison
What are you not? tall, snobby, irresponsible
Are you in love? not so much
One of your wish list items? a new car
What time is it? 10:37 bed time
The last thing you did? ate ice cream
What are you wearing? apron, shirt, pants
Your favorite book? too many words
Last thing you ate? yummy ice cream
Your life? lots of working
Your mood? sleepy and munchy
Your friends? loyal, fun, cool
What are you thinking about right now? go to bed
Your car? Black Chevy Cavalier
What are you doing at this moment? talking to madison
Your summer? horses work horses
Your relationship status? very much single
What is on your tv screen? nothing but black
When is the last time you laughed? An hour ago
Last time you cried? sometime last thursday
School? is the pits
Where is you cell phone? downstairs I think
Boyfriend? 3 years ago
Hair? growing out slowly
Your mother? an amazing woman
Your Father? works a lot
Your favorite items? my dell laptop
Your dream last night? Didn't have one
Your favorite drink? canned Dr. Pepper
Your dream guy? built handsome gentleman
The room you are in? my messy room
Your fear? Losing loved ones
What do you want to be in ten years? healthy, in love
Who did you hang out with last night? joy and madison
What are you not? tall, snobby, irresponsible
Are you in love? not so much
One of your wish list items? a new car
What time is it? 10:37 bed time
The last thing you did? ate ice cream
What are you wearing? apron, shirt, pants
Your favorite book? too many words
Last thing you ate? yummy ice cream
Your life? lots of working
Your mood? sleepy and munchy
Your friends? loyal, fun, cool
What are you thinking about right now? go to bed
Your car? Black Chevy Cavalier
What are you doing at this moment? talking to madison
Your summer? horses work horses
Your relationship status? very much single
What is on your tv screen? nothing but black
When is the last time you laughed? An hour ago
Last time you cried? sometime last thursday
School? is the pits
Productive Weekend
This weekend was a very productive one – it was nice! Friday night I worked both jobs, then went home and went to bed. Saturday morning I got up and met Aunt Weezie at the barn. We didn’t get to ride because we were too busy grooming! The horses have begun to shed like crazy – we groomed for an hour and still didn’t get all of the hair out! Big Buddy was definitely shedding the most – is seems he sheds enough for 3 horses.
After running home and taking a quick shower I went to a Mary Kay party at mom’s house with Judy, Lisa, Grandma and mom’s co-worker Charlene. I ended up buying some foundation, which is something I’ve never worn before. I’ve always seen makeup as more of a nuisance than a help. The girls said it looked nice though, and it evened out my skin tone so I went for it.
I stayed at mom’s until it was time to work at Hannaford. I had a 5-hour shift, so it was over in no time. After work I was going to watch Lake House and go to bed early. About 15 minutes after I got home Joy showed up with a bagful of Juicy Pear Jelly Belly jelly beans…those are my favorite! We decided to have a drink at the Sea Dog, then she dropped me off back home again so I could go to bed.
Sunday morning I got up, had breakfast at mom’s and was picked up by Aunt Weezie and the Uncle to head to church. Afterwards we went to the Muddy Rudder – we had baked brie for an appetizer, which was absolutely amazing! I had a lobster roll too, which was just loaded with meat. Before dropping me off we ran to Aubuchon and picked up some new shedding blades and wormers – Little Bud has been rubbing his tail and I am NOT happy about that! Then I went to get mom and we picked up some groceries. After I dropped her off I met up with Joy and Charmy and did some shopping. I picked up a new pair of Nike Shocks, 2 Yankee Candles – Stargazer Lilly (my favorite flower!) and Lilac (for mom) – some Easter candy for Mom & Stepdad then to Petco for a new fish. He’s a big golden fatty with black fins and a black moustache! I named him Charlie Chaplin.
After getting Charlie settled in Joy and I went for a walk, I watched AFV and then The Lakehouse, which was pretty lame. I hope they don't end up pairing Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock up for any more films.
After running home and taking a quick shower I went to a Mary Kay party at mom’s house with Judy, Lisa, Grandma and mom’s co-worker Charlene. I ended up buying some foundation, which is something I’ve never worn before. I’ve always seen makeup as more of a nuisance than a help. The girls said it looked nice though, and it evened out my skin tone so I went for it.
I stayed at mom’s until it was time to work at Hannaford. I had a 5-hour shift, so it was over in no time. After work I was going to watch Lake House and go to bed early. About 15 minutes after I got home Joy showed up with a bagful of Juicy Pear Jelly Belly jelly beans…those are my favorite! We decided to have a drink at the Sea Dog, then she dropped me off back home again so I could go to bed.
Sunday morning I got up, had breakfast at mom’s and was picked up by Aunt Weezie and the Uncle to head to church. Afterwards we went to the Muddy Rudder – we had baked brie for an appetizer, which was absolutely amazing! I had a lobster roll too, which was just loaded with meat. Before dropping me off we ran to Aubuchon and picked up some new shedding blades and wormers – Little Bud has been rubbing his tail and I am NOT happy about that! Then I went to get mom and we picked up some groceries. After I dropped her off I met up with Joy and Charmy and did some shopping. I picked up a new pair of Nike Shocks, 2 Yankee Candles – Stargazer Lilly (my favorite flower!) and Lilac (for mom) – some Easter candy for Mom & Stepdad then to Petco for a new fish. He’s a big golden fatty with black fins and a black moustache! I named him Charlie Chaplin.
After getting Charlie settled in Joy and I went for a walk, I watched AFV and then The Lakehouse, which was pretty lame. I hope they don't end up pairing Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock up for any more films.
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